everytime i see you online, a smile appears on my face. :) you never fail to make me happpy.

i did the dumb-est thing yesterday. i left my file in macdonalds.. and i went home all the way to bukitbatok without realising it. only realised that i lost it when i reached home.. so i went back alllll the way to wisma to get it back. took 77 three freaking times in total. ugh!

i went for a swim ALONE just now. how lonely. swam like 15 laps? so proud of myself. :) haha. cheapp thrill.

my sister is in this horrible mood. ugh. shes being a total bitch. save me!!

there's something wrong with me today. firstly, its my excessive blogging mood. secondly, i said dumb things today. like..

i was asking miss low about mrs see's wake.. ( she's my pri sch chinese teacher and she passed away on friday. ) so i was asking about the location and all..

ringo: i meet you outside later.. i need to put something back.
me: eh eh miss low, how is mrs see now?

miss low stared at me for i think afew seconds and asked me to repeat myself.. and on another occasion, she was talking about sending 2 bus loads full of girls over to the singapore casket place.

me: i think if miss may chew ( smps principal ) passes away.. there will be more than 2 bus loads of girls..

miss low stared at me again and commented about how dumb i was today. dont know whats with me today.. -smacks forehead-

yayyy! danny kor kor is coming back on tuesday!!! :D cant wait to hear his voice or maybe even see him!! missed him so so so much. especially today, when steve kor kor was asking me hows danny and all.. he didnt even know that danny was away for so long. guess as usual, danny only contacts his friends when he needs them. tsk. im supposed to tell danny to call steve when he's back. but telling danny wont make a difference cos he probably wont even call steve till he needs his help or something.. haiya. just like how he only calls us when he needs us. butttt, i still love him as my brother. :)) cant wait for the Os to be over then he can bring me out.. shopping!!! yayy! haha. and maybe this time his friends would convince him to allow me to "tag" along with them to zouk or some other clubs they go to. yayyy. but imagine clubbing with my bro and his friends.. and when they fag, i cant!! growls.

okies. enough said. im talking too much. bed time.. toodles.

ohhhh!! i finally took the north east line train today!!! wooohoo!! :) i was like a total dumb ass bitch when hazel brought me to the potong pasir station.. i was like.. "eh im so excited.. its my first time on this NEL thingy!! hazellll!!!! yayyy!" haha. how dumb.. and while we were on the train.. i didnt even sit down cos i was so amazed by the tunnel thingy. and i started making up ghost stories and all.. haha. dumb.. and the interchange is really huge. wow. i was so amazed by it.. haha. k. enough said.. im going to study. or rather, attempt to.

just got home.. and i didnt even study today. i can just fail my chem exam tomorrow. bah. woke up late this morning.. and was about to leave the house then i suddenly remembered that i didnt have anything pink on me. lol. cos i promised ringo that i will wear something pink cos WE love pink. lol. so went back to my room to look for something pink. finally found my peterlang pink belt. lol.

ended up being late for service.. haha. sermon was good.. or rather the sharing session was good.. haha. still remembered how steve used to call my house last time to look for my bro, then i will be like "steve kor kor.. hold on please.." haha. and now he's married. lol.

went to holland village for nasi lemak with hazel and evelyn. nice nice. :) i likee. haha. too much hollandvillage for me. lol. went to hazel's house after that.. looked at photos and all. so funny lohr. primary school days and all. ahhh, memories.. haha. went to town together with hazel after that then we went our seperate ways.

met cj at taka. haha. she was all alone fagging. lol. walked around.. and i bought my urs heels!! haha. yayy. now i wanna get the m)phosis bag and heels! sheesh. then met her sis.. walked around again.. haha. my feet is hurting though i wore my birkenstocks. ugh. went to tiffany and co. sent my bracelet for polishing.. and 3 days later, when im collecting it.. im gonna send my necklace over for repair cos i broke it. haha. and my sis still hasnt found out though i broke it like 2 years ago?

didnt study at all. ugh. die.

hahah. i suddenly remembered.. just now we were in holland village, walking around, talking about the show hollandvillage.. then we were walking past this stretch where maggie, ( the big chested woman ) walked.. and talked so loudly and all.. and then denise and i started imitating her.. we both carried our bags up.. walked like total bimbos and started shaking our butts. then we had to touch each other's ass like zoe did in the show to know which is her mommy. hahhaha. dumb!

denise :: hahah. helloo.. i've known you since we're in primary one and we attended the same BALLET classes after school at the nanyang academy of fine arts. haha. miss wong is that her name? lol.. and you were the "full-stop" that my schoo bus driver used to call. then we joined the same cca, swimming. haha. stupid training was at the rivervalley swimming complex. and then in sec 1, we had the swimming enrichment class and everyone used to go over to your house after that to bath. lol. and remember going to the beach, you, elin and i? in sec 3.. and we drank hooch by the beach. lol. and after that you guys came over to my sister's place.. all the fu lu shou moments and memories..

so i guess all in all i've know you for.. OMG. 10 freaking years!! sounds as though we're really old now.. lol. anyway.. we've been through ups and downs.. please do study hard for your Os k. you're capable of good results my dear. take good care yar? :) -hugs-

just got home.. today was a boring yet fun day? haha. went to town.. big mirror again!! whats new.. oh guess wat.. i was fagging and wai was packing her fag.. then suddenly this old man with a paper bag, and some papers looked at us from above.. i was so afraid its the officers catching underaged smokers.. so i just asked wai and xp to go to the toilet.. fucking scary. think it really was the officer. and when we came outta the toilet, rushed all the way up and went over to paragon.

wanted to make an appointment with leong on friday. but he's doing some fashion show.. growls. seems like every single time i want to cut my hair he's busy busy busy. went over to taka. tried on this reallllly nice pair of heels from m)phosis. actually make that two.. agh. i dont reallly need another pair of shoe righttt? saw this other nice pair at urs. and its on sale!!! haha. walked around.... blah blah. i tried on this SKIRT at britishindia.. really pretty. haha. comtemplating whether anot i should get it.. hrrms.

went over to far east and i saw my dunks again!! 179. and i think i should stop buying shoes.. sheesh. then we met xp, kelvin and afew other guys.. fucking boring. then wai and i decided to go to holland to meet denise.

had dinner, bitched, joked.. haha. had fun catching up and all.. and we all had an urge to drink.. so we walked over to the stretch along tango's.. oh! and there was this table of 4 guys.. and we walked pass and then one of them was like.. "helloo!!" and he started waving in the direction of denise and i. and we both turned around to realise that there wasnt anyone.. and we were like.. "huh? daphne/denise you know him ah?" and we both didnt know the guy.. so we started laughing.. and i think they realised that they got the wrong person and they started laughing too. haha. dumb. anyway good looking bunch of guys. they kinda stand out.. and they look a little gay-ish? haha. gay guys are cute. :) hehe.

oh yar, in the end.. we decided that we cant pass off as 18.. we went over to 7-11 to buy drinks. and i passed off as 18 to the cashier!! yayy. haha. oh i drank the fcuk drink. its damnn nice. :) go try the cranberry and grapefruit flavour. nice bottle too. i kept it. haha. talked so much while drinking. but we all didnt get high or whatsoever. how to. lol. talking about idians.. blah blah. dumbbb. haha.

im going to study tomorrow after church! haha. meeting jonathan at harbourfront.. then im meeting cj in the evening to get my 7210 backk. yayy!

today is the last saturday im going out before the 21st november. ( actually not really.. going to the chalet next friday night.. zouk on saturday night.. and on the 25th of oct its wai's bday celebrations! ) anyway.. yes.. hrrms. and i think its going to be a boring boring saturday today. -whines- i wanna go to holland village to get the pretty pouch i saw yesterday!!

gonna bring my chemisty revision guide out later. haha. will attempt to study.. shucks. i just realised that i left my chem assesment book over at bukitbatok! ughhhh.

wooohoo. maybe zouk next friday or saturday!!! :) yayy!

i suddenly remembered about a year or so ago, when the superstarrrs were together.. there was this period of time when i was acting a little weird.. as in i kinda drifted away from them in little ways. and i suddenly remembered there was once, bran called me after school.. asking me where am i and all. then i said i was in the school hall watching some play.. she demanded that i go home now and all. but i didnt.. and when i did, i walked out to the side gate to realise that she and nana were actually "hiding" behind some tree waiting for me.. awwww. so sweet. and we went to town together.. i remember sitting outside long john when they both asked me what was wrong with me and all, why was i acting the way i did..

just wanna say thanks for doing those little things k? superstarr days were so fun. :) miss you guys alot. we realllllly need to meet up.

was just doing some thinking. i actually miss st margs quite alot. miss those times when we would go to the com lab, science labs, etc. the canteen.. standing outside the office while waiting for the our punishment.. going to the toilet after every lesson.. everything. i miss the people there even more. not the teachers of cos. not miss fat kang, not mrs bimbo chan, miss mother cow ho.. etc etc. people i dislike. and of cos the students.. not mentioning names but err, the indian cow. the cry baby. the fucking big ass ice skater. the i-think-im-pretty-enough-and-im-a-teachers-pet noraliza. it totally turns me off to know that some girl in my class last year actually went over to the teacher and reported that wai stole a test tube from the lab. like what the fuck? maybe its against her allah morale values but i dont really care?


i suggest you skip the following.. cos im just going on and on..

:: going to the washroom after every lesson in sec 3.
:: hiding our handphones INSIDE the ceiling.
:: hiding our school books INSIDE the ceiling above the handicapped toilet.
:: going to the handicapped toilet just to sit on the bars and bitchh.
:: miss wee's "dai ni, ni gen wo juan qian mian lai! jun hui he yi ling bu yao yi qi zuo!! ni men san ge yi ding yao fen kai!"
:: mrs low's maths lesson which only jacintha listens to. while the rest of us are gathered in different cliques doing our own stuff.
:: mrs goh's "are you a DUMB DUMB? use your common sense!"
:: going to the library during our free period which will be followed by a session of bitching and ranting on the sofa with the librarian going "girls.. SHHHHH!" every few minutes!
:: 40 cents soya bean drink.
:: weekly devotions on mondays that will start with a verse.. and nothing else on God. the rest is on the school's image.
:: standing outside the office waiting for our punishment.
:: sitting down outside the general office writing a confession letter when all i did was, forget to bring a book.
:: passing letters here there and everywhere.
:: 2o'clock phone booth!!!
:: the whole big group gathering at the phone booth after school everyday.
:: flagging for a cab after school outside the sidegate, with up to 4 cabs for everyone. saying to the driver.. "uncle, cine/taka."
:: lining up after our recess.
:: spending a whole morning before daily assembly to make sure that we're in straight lines.. making each class either follow a pillar or a palm tree.
:: those individual/ group counselling we had with mrs szetoh. not the stupid old cow counsellor now.
:: showing each other what color undies we're wearing for the day.
:: pulling up ------'s skirt infront of the close circuit camera near the stairs. while she was in a -ahem- g-string.
:: write our names on the wet cement and getting caught for it cos we ran away after seeing the construction worker and he recognised us.
:: irritating the shit outta jacintha without failing to make her cry each time we try.
:: jacintha wanting to splash a bottle of new opened pink dolphin, only to result in her bags and her books getting wet, not to mention sticky.
:: catching earthworms just to put them in her bag.
:: meeting bran with denise at the stairs. where they do an replay of.. romeo and juliet. lol.
:: doing the indian dance with denise in class.
:: quarreling with the bunch of indians during recess.
:: going to the office because of a racist quarrel.
:: quarreling with 4/7's indian girls cause they made some crude comments about us.
:: going outta school last year during national day to realise that the 4/7's indian girls actually asked this indian err, sexually confused BUTCH to come and whack us.
:: that horrible looking butch ( with hugeee boobs ) wanting to chase me when i said "eeeeyerrr! so turn off can."
:: that eeeyer butch at the bus stop opposite school wanting to whack us but she didnt have to balls to do so.
:: which only resulted in her raising her arms coming towards us scolding some god knows what tamil vulgarites. and her going up the next bus when we dared her to touch us.
:: realising 2 weeks later that the butch has commited suicide. jumped down from her kitchen window becos of.. loveee. oh please.
:: those fucking donations cards we have at least TWICE a year.
:: the st marg's fun fair in 2001.
:: dunking machine and going around school all wet.
:: getting caught for being a.. BUTCH. just cos i decided to cut my hair short.
:: recess in sec 3 with cy, bett etc etc.
:: recess in sec 4 with wai, denise, xiuqi, keyan etc etc.
:: watching the teenage textbook in the library on a 14 inched tv.

so many more things.. sigh. miss you guys alot. :)

oh. i just realised today that the coffeeculb at hollandvee is closed for renovations. UGHHH. i love that place. everything about it.. ughhhh.

went back to st marg's.. wore my -ahem ahem- most decent outfit. haha. my white ralph lauren polo tee and jeans. with my red adidas yoga shoes and the adidas bag. ha. i think i looked as though i was going for some yoga lesson?. lol.

bought this packet of sour plum sweet just now. its highly addictive. :) oh yes, i was mentioning.. i went back to st margs. saw everyone.. missed them so much though i still do see quite afew of them very often. missed the school though.. saw the fucking vp. bloody money faced bitch. if i were to give a donation to the school, i would be able to stay in school. how about that? i didnt not get the see the mr handsome ( as everyone sayss.. ) koh! haiyaaa. oh went to the classroom block. went to my class and saw some fuckers. take for example.. vanessa and jacintha. eeeeyer.

saw jen!!! and christina!!! and the twins!!! after sooooo long!!! haha.

tomorrow is the last sat im going out. next week is a chalet. so its not counted!

my Os starts on the 3rd of november and will end on the 21st of november. so fast eh? and i must admit that although im reallllly looking forward to the 21st of november, im kinda dreading it cos i wont be able to experience secondary school life anymore. and i do not wish to be retained.. so.. yar. secondary schoo life seems so sheltered. spoon fed and all. and im also afraid that i might abuse the freedom given to me after that. pray that i will have self discipline. :) something that i realllllly am lacking off. sheesh.

ugh, i actually made a pact with myself not to stay out at night anymore till my Os are over. but then the sec 5s in my school are having this chalet next friday, saturday and sunday. that means if im going, i will have to go in my SKIRT and everything else all the way to pasir ris. boohoo. so many things. and i'll probably stay on fri and sat cos all my other girlfriends are staying over. but then again, how fun can it get? i probably cant fag cos so many school people will be there and its err, impolite? yess. chalet for 2 nights and i fucking cant fag. torture!! ugh. and each of us will probably have to pay like thirty bucks. AND!!! no alcohol!!!!!!! only a handful of us wants to drink. and the rest probably like spoil everything. damn.

okay. im going back to st marg's now. getting my N level cert. hrrrms, what should i wear? shall choose my most decent outfit. :)

tomorrow's my maths paper one and my social studies paper. and you know what? ( no no, not ra ta ta ta ta ta ta ta ta ta.. inside joke. :P ) i've not even open my social studies textbook nor have i practised any single paper for my maths. im so so so screwed.

next friday is my school's prom thingy. its so early cos there are many foreigners and they probably will go back to their countries straight after the Os.. hence its after the prelims. how dumb. anyway not sure whether anot im going.. blarghs. like how fun can a school prom be? moreover, no drinks at all! you know what i mean. and next friday, my sis is going to drive over to jb with her friends and tasha. and my bro in law will be in america for some meeting. and then i could perhaps have this whole house to myself. bbq? should i?.. but there's the prom thingy! ughh.

i ate rojak and 2 chicken wings for dinner. and my sis just asked me whether i want instant noodles. crazyy. like as if im not obese enough.

to meet, to know, to love, to part. - saddest tale of the human heart.

biology practical was crap today. chemistry was alright.. i bought more pens and highlighters today. now i have 3 highlighters.. PINK, blue and purple.. with many colour pens and only ONE blue ink pen. ha. dumbb. uncalled for.

no school tomorrow cos i dont take pure physics. :) yayyy. but tuition early in the morning at 11. sheesh. feel like going for a swim and all tomorrow. hrrms.

wai :: you really dont want to meet me only because of one reason meh? not you want to stay in kimseng mehh. haiya. whatever la. up to you la. i probably know how you felt when xp dua-ed you the other time.

cat :: whoa, i read your msg that part about going into new schools and having new friends are.. i dunno what to say. anyway you already having your own new friends now wat. next time if you ever do miss me, ( LOL ) take out the photo college i did alright? and thanks so much for forcing me to go to kimseng for saturday when you were so busy once you reached there!

phantom :: errr, you are? yar la. my english sucks. and i do like to contradict. thank you very much. and thanks for errr, wishing me all the best for my prelims?.. haha. gone with the wind? alrighttttt. and dont insult fortysix pleasee! he's not a turn off guy. hrmff.

christina :: heyyy! i tried to sign your guestbook a couple of times but everytime i tried, seems like the whole thing will screw up.. anyway i havent seen you in months. you're busy studying eh? miss those times we went out and all. almost a year ago?!.. time sure flies.. take care yar? seeya around!

its the 22nd of september!! that means 8 more days before danny kor kor is back.. :) yay. but thats not the point. the point is.. its his birthday today!!! although i dont know what time it is over in newyork now. ha. happy birthday danny kor kor. love ya. :) not like he'll ever see this.. but.. ha. i dunno.

8 more days to his return.
8 months since.. *hrrms.

i slept from 2 all the way to 630. wonderful weather. :) went to popular just now to get new pens and all. its a habit of mine to get new pens and all before the start of the exam period.. makes me feel as though with those new pens, i could probably think better or sth? dumb.

anyway im taking a break from studying now. yes yes, i am studying. -grins-

slept at 4 last night and woke up at 8 this morning. -yawns- church was alright.. was kinda distracted. hrrms. no idea why too. after that, had lunch with hazel and clement. talked quite alot of rubbish. actually, i think i was the one doing most of the talking.. haha. and no, i am not sexually confused.. thank you. :) haha.

think im gonna take a nap now.. and wake up to study! chem/bio practical tomorrow. shitt.

as passe as this may seem.. i've decided to do some shoutouts over here. you should just skip this whole section.. yar. just let me talk.

catherine // partnerincrime :: gosh.. 2 years just passed by us like that. in the past 2 years.. we went through quite alot yar? and thanks for always being there.. though things have changed alot since the past few months.. i do want you to know that i reallly care for you alot. and please do study. time to get serious.. you know that too right?

wai // 2become1 :: heyhey. haha. all those swimming sessions and furobath sessions were fun right? and im veryyy honoured to know about 95 and be the first and probably the last person to ever read your diary. haha. thanks for the trust you've put in me. dont worry. i wont break the bond.. those phone sessions bitching and whining.. and we're going to m-i-a together soon remember? haha. take care and study hard k.

wai & cat :: you two are probably the two that tolerates me when im having pms syndrome and all. and yes i know i can be a total grouch. but thanks for tolerating all my mood swings and all. i know i can be a totallll bitch at times. and you two, dont forget your promise to me today to get me many mashimaro things from hongkong!!! :) -melts- haha.

bran // su-glass :: brannnnny. im still sorry about your birthday k. never mind, im sure there are many more of your birthdays ahead that i can wish you and meet you on the day itself!! :) havent meet you in years!! missed ya.. and steffi too! haha. *waves.. "heyyyyaaa stef!!"* hope your err, hamster daphyy is fine and jumping. lets meet up for lunch or dinner soon? take care and study hard k? maybe if im lucky someday i will see you at your school's bus stop!

nana // acg :: heyy.. we havent really been talking much eh? much more meeting up.. haha. miss those conferences last year whereby i will yak and yak. and then you will just keep quiet most of the time.. we must meet up for a meal soon or something k. miss ya. haha. you are one of the verrrry few i call/meet when im in a horrible mood cos most of the time you can make me smile/laugh. like a dosage of happypill like that. haha. take care k. lets go ktv soon!

sheryl // sista#2 :: heyy. haha. im realllly sorry i had to go out that day and be sick. didnt expect it.. sorry! heh. its really funny how we didnt really talk back in smss but then only got closer because of your june chalet last year. remember we were fagging outside the chalet like some faggots. and we were so broke that we didnt even have money for fag.. and we kept stealing cj's fag. haha. and how we used to skip school together and err, end up at woodlands? ha. take care alright? and please study hard.. and stop doing things that you shouldnt do alright? you know what i mean.. studyyy! :)

peiling // sistaaa :: heyyyy! i havent seen you in like years! i tried to reply you but i cant seem to get into your blog.. and i lost your number. infact, i lost everyone's number.. stupid 7210. anywayy, your As are nearing right? study hard k.. i know you are.. right? heh. miss those times last year. heh. the happyalltheway days.. we realllly must meet up soon alright? heh.

beks // muackspartner :: heyyy. -muackkks- haha. havent reallly talked to you in ages.. and i do remember that i owe you lunch! soon k? and we are supposed to study since years ago. but, haha. you always end up getting distracted when studying with me and i'll feel so bad.. bukitpanjangplaza's chicken rice soon or something alright? :) study hard yar.. heh.

hrrm.. actually alot more to say to more people. but basically, im kinda replying guestbook messages cum doing shoutouts. enough said.. bed time! but im still veryyy awake.

forty-six :: you probably dont even know this is for you. and i cant believe 2 years just passed by me like that. we've both changed in different ways. but one thing left unchanged is the feeling i get when i see you. pure joy. :) miss those times we had. and sometimes i wish that i could replay that whole period again. and again.. and i will try my best to forget you before you leave. yar. miss you lotss.

twenty six :: xiaoniaoo. the thing for you has always been an on and off thing.. but latey its like on a super ON mode.. am i making sense? time sure flies since i saw you for the very first time on 22nd jan.. the day i went to school to apply for a place. and its funny how our different cliques of friends actually got together and all. those little things that you do. :) cocome? -grins- but then to know that you're leaving.. im actually a little affected. yar. more than i should be.. but i do hope that you will do well over there.. miss those chasing.. talking of spirits and all. sigh. miss you.. alot!

just got home.. lets see. the most embarrassing thing happened today. i came outta the bus.. and i kinda slipped. it was raining and i didnt know that my red adidas yoga shoes were so damn slippery. and i kinda slipped when i came down the bus..... ugh. so i kinda ran away very quickly. damn.

met wai at big mirror. ha. whats new?.. went over to err, pool world to meet sean and glenn.. and we just sat there like idiots watching them play pool. haha. and 15 minutes later.. i realised that my cousin was actually just at the next table.. haha. lucky i wasnt like holding a pack of fag or something. met roy-ness after that.. and went to cine for errr, lunch? ha. saw hazel and rowyYyyYY after that!! haha. wanted to watch the movie camp.. but the tickets were sold out.. damn. and i just found out that you can actually pay for your movie tickets using your ez-link card! hahah. so from now on i can just always use my ez-link card since its giro-linked..

while waiting for cat, wai and i went to fareast and got her clown fishes!! ( read, nemo!!! ) its damn cute. haha. walked around.. bitched.. blah blah. took neoprints!! and i saw this realllllllly nice pair of nike air dunks (low) at leftfoot. its PINK. no no, not totallllly pink but fuschia pink and white? yar. its realllllllly pretty. $179 bucks. should i, should i not?

i wanted to go home at 10.. while cat and wai wanted to go over to kimseng.. so its logical that i leave and they go rite? but they forced me to go to kimseng. practically force i swear.. i was being nice so i waited with them till their cab came.. and they were still asking me to go. and i kept refusing.. then they pushed me into the cab.. growls. went to kimseng to dunno-do-what.

hrrrms, the call from cat was a shock. was kinda upset and affected when i heard the news.. sigh. was whining all the way from cine to far east.. sighh. can you not go? can you stay?

i've not fagged for 7days!!!! woooohoooo!!!!!! :)

have you watched the dumb BMI advertisement? took my BMI.. im nearing the overweight one i think. got a BMI of 17.. damn. too short and too fat. bah.

prelims starting next monday!!!!! boohoo.

and guess what am i doing now when my prelims are next week? im watching finding nemo with tasha. got the dvd.. some pirated one i think. ha. anyway its a nice and touching movie. remember watching it in cine with like 15 people and then cat was like "daphne!! you're crying.. hAhhAaaAaa." and she said it in the middle of the show. dammit.

met cj, wilson and err.. 2 other guys just now. at toh yi. haha. brannny ah, why you go china. otherwise i meet you there too! haha. bitched just now.. found out some things thats.. hAahhahaAaa. gross. enough said.

searched the whole house for my 7210's warranty card.. sigh. i had so many things in that phone. especially the pictures!!!!!!!!! growls.

quarreled with my brother just now. what the fuck. no, not danny. the other one.. irritating piece of shit. anyway.. got realllly pissed i just walked away while he was in the midst of scolding me..

brought tasha to the library.. ha.

i've been missing you these days. sigh. more than i should? and im liking twenty6 more than i thought i will. ugh. this is bad..

my phone died on me. UGH! i think i've got too many mms and ringtones and games in it. fuck. and my 7210 decides to switch off by itself and it cant be switched on anymore! just when i've changed my wallpaper to this reallllllyyyyyy nice thing. i took a picture of it from my friend's phone and sent it to myself. growlss. realllly pissed off. now allllll my things will be deleted. AND i've got EVERYONE'S number stored in the phone. not the simcard. damn. call me a fool. ugh!!!! and now i'll probably be phoneless for a couple of days.. damn. just when i've wasted so much money on gprs downloading stuff. ugh! and my phone is only like nine months old? what the hell.

enough grumbling said. anyway i didnt sleep during socialstudies today. its a miracle. :) hahaha. but during the last period, i slept alllllll the way till school ended.. and i even slept through my lunch time. and when i woke up.. i realised that my friend and i were both 15 minutes late for our remedial. ha.

i just wrote this reallllly long letter to my sis. been ages since i did that.. oooer, 14 more days before danny kor kor comes back. yippeee.

i came to school only for 2 periods of science. the rest are free periods because i dont take art. oh, and im going to try and be less vulgar. i just heard the "graduation" song on the radio.. sigh. sad sad song. makes me miss everyone in smss. :( boohoo. and oh yar.. i will be less vulgar from now on. too much coming out from my mouth and my mom isnt too pleased.. and im afraid tash picks them up.

i think my handphone bill is gonna be damn high this month. used quite alot of the GPRS service this weekend.. downloaded 7 ringtones.. oh.. 2 of it being mario and pacman. :) and also downloaded puzzlebobble and this new powerpuffgirls game. haha. all these for free. just have to pay the gprs thingy.

hrrm. are friends really for forever? i dont mean to sound like a total sappy person.. but as my sis said before, friends come and go.. i saw her friends come and go. i saw my bro's friends come and go.. and i saw my friends coming.. and going when the going gets tough. am i making sense? ahh, whatever. yar.

okies.. im in class now. haha. dont know why woke up this morning with an urge to bet on soccer today.. hrrms. should i? imagine i go to my fucking brother and say.. "kor, i want to bet soccer leh." fuck man. i swear i will get slapped or something..

anyway.. was on the phone last night with my friend. and he started talking about satan and all that. like how the bible is one sided and all.. fucking scary. my lights were switched off and all.. and when he started on it. i switched on the light and sat upright.. damn scared.. anyway.. yar. dont know why after hanging up the phone.. i started praying.. something that i've not done for err, quite some time.. talked to God for quite long.. yar. prayed for mannnny people. over mannnny issues. even prayed for people that i dislike. can you imagine? yar.. not pray for misfortune to fall upon them la. yar.. hrrms..

okay.. recess soon.. ta.

im in this realllly foul mood now. went opposite to the plaza with my mom to buy dinner for the useless fuckers at home that refuses to get their fucking ass moving. anyway.. yar. went opposite and i saw this really nice adidas bag at royal sporting house. asked my mom to get it for me and she refused. i got really pissed and made some comment about her buying toys for tasha when all tasha says is.. "veryy nice.. can i buy please?" and as for me? ha. i get nothing. very nice. and im her fucking daughter. what the fuck.

okay. just watched the star charity show. kinda touching.. teared abit at some segments where they feature those needy people.. and the performance by jamie yeo, jamie teo and carrie chong is.. whoosh. damn nice. :) not bad larh. taypinghui is like.. hottttt. woohoo. and christopher looks quite good.. and all of their clothes were sponsored by adidas? they had stuff i couldnt even find in the adidas shops in singapore man.

the video , senorita by justin timberlake is damn nice. haha. i think im lagging.. i've just realised that justin timberlake is hottt. :) haha.

i hate pretending like everything's alright with me because it isnt. my fucking family is fucking screwed. cant wait for the day i can just shift out like how danny did. get away from my fucking eldest brother. although i only see him on weekends, its enough to make me fucking irritated with him. does anyone in this family remember that in no longer 7? im fucking turning 17. and i hate crying over things that i shouldnt even be bothered about.

ugh. this is crap. i dont know what the fuck im typing about. ugh.

my mom just warned me not to download any music. haha. okay. shall be a good girl and stop downloading.. satisfied with the 369 songs i have in my computer. :) used to have 700+ but then my stupid hp computer died on me. bah.

anyway.. may be going to jaekata after my Os. cat just asked me yesterday.. not sure if the jen+crystal+cat+me plan to go to bali is still on.. hope so.. most probably to jarkata then to bali. can't wait.. :)

just got home.. realised that i spent quite alot yesterday for food that i didnt even touch. for example.. the plate of chicken rice at cine, and the plate of chicken rice at kimseng. and thats about err.. 12? and then not forgetting 3 glasses of orange juice that is around err 10 bucks? and 2 cups of ice milo.. AND meiji's chocolate milk. man.. i sure drank alot yesterday. couldnt make myself swallow much so i just had to drink and drink.

was supposed to go to church today. we were all in edmund's room last night preparing his present for his girlfriend.. till about 615? and everyone went to sleep.. amazingly at 615 till about 7ish? i was quite awake and wai and i were bitching and all. and at about 745 allll of them came into our room.. and i fell asleep.. when i was supposed to wake up at 8 for church! sheesh. woke up at about 1 and made my way back home with wai.

this is REALLLLLLLLLLLY the last time im not going home before my Os are over. yes. realllllly. yar. okay.. maybe on the 3rd october ( my school's grad night.. dont ask me why its so early. cos there are quite alot of foreigners.. so they hold it earlier so that the foreigners could leave after their Os or something like that? ) and errr.. maybe after my prelims..? AH. fuck it. no no no. yar. im going to be a good girl and start studying.

just got back from rivervalley. went there to meet rio, jerry and denny for supper. horrible food. nice milo. i walked so much today my legs are fucking aching.

walked to and fro from kimseng to rivervalley twice in my heels. dammit. everyone's watching soccer now. im feeling so sleepy. yawns.

hrrm.. met sheryl and wai this afternoon. was feeling alright at home but once i boarded the bus i felt like crap. head was spinning and i wanted to puke so badly. but i've not eaten anything since last night's dinner till this afternoon 4?

reached town and went to cine foodcourt. bought food but i couldnt make myself swallow the food. so i bought orange juice and ate my medicine. worst. ended up puking in cine's toilet. super gross. after sleeping for like err, half an hour with my head down on the table. i felt soooo much better.

walked around and we went to take neoprints at this booth we saw outside emerald. i mean the last time i took it i was in secondary one?!! haha. damn funny. walked allllll the way to plaza singapura to meet sean, roy and some other guys. and they were trying to run away from this china girl? dumbbb. ended up in emerald. i bought err, orange juice at healthworks and guess how much it is? five fucking dollars. and its a fucking small cup. damn. anywayyy. after that wai and i went to kimseng.

and im at kimseng now. not going home.. lazy to take the bus.. yar. staying here tonight. LAST time im ton-ning.. REALLLLLLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yar. hrrrms. dunno whats the plan for the night ahead.. hrrms.

-melt- twentysix. :)

tasha has a barbie skate scooter that costs about 129. and she's a 3 and a half year old girl mind you.. and all i want is another bag and my mom refuses to get it for me, insisting that i go and count the number of bags i have before i ask for another one. sheesh. not like tasha really needs the toy anyway. they're always so biased. there is really no reason why tasha needs another toy, to add to her hugee collection in her room. she has almost every toy that is advertised on kids central? and on top of that.. those "educational" toys that my mom and my sis buy each time they spot some new ones. everyone's spoiling her.. even my danny kor kor. tasha doesnt know the difference between a pair of prada mary janes and a pair of adidas sneakers.. so i think there is no point wasting money on a pair of prada shoes? or yet another dkny dress? okay fine.. im saying all these cos i was the baby of the family and i used to get everything in my sis/bro's luggage but not anymore.. sheeshhh. watever. i dont know what im rambling about. pms.

oh just suddenly remembered.. was talking to my sister last night about clubbing and all. and i found out that singapore airline stewardesses gets free entry to practically all clubs. all they need to do is flash their SQ pass.. and in every club, lets say zouk.. there's always a "SQ corner" where all the stuck up bitches will be.. and on top of that.. they get free flow of drinks all night long!!! all these just so that those men will be attracted to the club cos the babes are there.. and then they will go there, pay entrance fee.. buy drinks and all to impress the SQ babes. also, SQ people get discounts on alot of things.. free entry here and there, everywhere.. basically they are like the elite bunch that people, especially men crave for. so basically.. the advertising people.. use these women to lure men to spend their money. and this tactic apparently works veryyy well. with all the attention on the girls, its no wonder why so many SQ girls are SPGs. and i do know a couple of them.. my sis and my bro's friends.. nice people but they are fucking choosy when it comes to men. no asian men.. and they are fucking bimbo-tic.. ha. but reallllly hot and pretty. :)

whoaaa. i just received this email from chase titled "japanese butches. MUST SEE." and i must admit im totally impressed. not that im a lesbian.. but these butches are certainly eye-candy. :) impressive.. and as the titled said.. japanese.. ah.

having reallllllly bad cramps now. took panadol extra like twice today? and also took the pink panadol once. ugh. popped a total of 6 pills today. and the cramps are still here. didnt even have the appetite to have my dinner today. but my mom cooked chicked rice for dinner, hainanese chicken rice infact.. and she thinks its one of my favourite dishes.. but not really when she cooks it almost once every month? but.. owell. being a nice daughter and i forced down the plate of hainanese chicken rice outta respect to my mom. and of cos the maid.. infact, i didnt even eat much today. only some chips, eggs and my dinner.

lets see, wai came over today. went swimming.. i swam a couple of laps while she just chilled out.. ha. then went to the suana and back to the pool. it was so freaking warm in the suana that at one point, i was jumping/dancing and i just ran outta the room. oh, there was this group of kids.. i think the oldest could be like err, 13? and there was this errr, obese girl. wai was saying that her boobs are wayyy bigger than mine. and thats like so fucking true. i looked over and saw her, whoaaa! and she looks veryyyy young. maximum age for her maturity level and looks would be 13. oh man.. and to think that she will still be going through puberty. and oh yar!!! we were so bored we went over to the kids pool and sat on the slide many mannnny times! so fun!!! :) hahaha.

hrrm.. was just talking on the phone with wai. our conversation made me ponder alot. alot on how things has changed since err, start of june?

we were talking about how much each and everyone of us changed. in appearance, thoughts, beliefs, company, good friends, habits, etc.

hrrm, kinda miss my partnerincrime quite alot. miss the girl in her nikeairforceones with her shirt laughing with me over all the crappy jokes. and also thought of the time, we were out and she ran infront of us, and hid behind a pillar and went boo!! :) those were the days. and how for the first half of this year, we never failed to meet every saturday. missed the jumpy her and all. sigh. people change righttt? so yar, have to learn to accept changes as we go on in life.

nothing in life is constant. the only constant thing is changes.

im in a horrible horrible mood. aunty just called. she visiting danny in newyork in the next few days. called and asked for his number over there and i had to say, "i dont have danny kor kor's number over there.." how pathetic is this. he has been there for 4 months and i've not spoken to him even once. dont even know how to contact him. sigh. and i suddenly miss him alot. like as if having him shift out of our house is not enough, he has to leave for newyork and not contact me, his youngest sister. bah. and he only called home once to wish my mom happy birthday. sometimes i wish i knew danny better. but i guess because of the age gap we have, its hard for him to relate to me and vice versa. sigh.

watched hollandvillage just now and teared a little at the part where xiaoxin spoke to jingjing in the room. anyway, from what i read in 8days few weeks back, jingjing will end up marrying the chicken king. sheesh.

im getting a little too emotional today. been thinking too much. being at home makes me think. sometimes too much.. can i get away from this shit hole? and can i please bring my mom along? sometimes i'd like to think how "perfect" my family would be if its just danny, my sis, my mom and i. comfort zone. sigh.

know all about your reputation.
and how its bound to be a heartbreak situation.
but i cant help it if im helpless everytime that im where you are.
you walk in and my strength walks out the door.
say my name and i cant fight it anymore.
oh i know i should go,
but i need your touch just too damn much.
loving you isnt really something i should do.
shouldnt wanna spend my time with you.
i should try to be strong but baby,
you're the right kind if wrong.
yeah baby, you're the right kind of wrong.

LeAnn Rimes - right kind of wrong

woke up around 1plus today. slept around 4? was studying from 3plus till 4plus. :) haha. practically froze the room.. wrapped myself in my comforter and studied. heh. i like. haha. owell. guess what song did i download yesterday? barbie girl - aqua. *dang dang. haha. like excuse me daphne, how bimbo can you get? wai and i were just singing this song in our most bimbo voices on saturday at the ktv. and that day we were singing it at jacob's house too. haha. damn funny. and pssst, i actually put the barbie girl song on my playlist last night. haAahahAa. cant believe it. -smacks forehead-

think im going to swim tomorrow. anyone wanna join us?

my mom is such a bitch. she just came into my room, without knocking mind you. and saw me smsing on my 7210. and she started to ask a whole shit load of questions where did i get the phone from and where the sim card is from blahblahblah. irritating bitch. ugh. lucky i divert all my calls to voicemail.

daphne:

Your world, good or bad, revolves around your family. You are determined and loyal, and your word is your bond. You have much enthusiasm with a driving attitude toward achievement in life. You have a talent for working with people on a one to one basis. You work hard to achieve material success through your own efforts. You can handle details well. You have a methodical mind. You can be quite inventive and quite curious.

lim:


You are fair-minded sometimes to the point of being opinionated. You have a strong need to be loved and appreciated. You are relatively demonstrative in your affections. You enjoy being stroked verbally and physically. You are always involved with projects and things to do.

ouch. my butt hurts. must be when i fell from the bed yesterday. ouch*

was just thinking.. next year end i'll turn 18. and in that year, can you imagine if all my friends can go clubbing LEGALLY, fag in public OPENLY.. and then i'll just be saying this.. "eh lets go boatquay leh. there dont really check ic.. eh dont fag here leh. can we go taxistand there?" haAahHAaAaa. -shakes head- sad case.

anyway what shall i do for my birthday this year? and suggestions?

i suspect that my fucking brother visits my blog. fark. aiyarhs. heck. i've got this sudden urge to play with candles and all. lantern festival. :) anyway slacked the whole day today. boring.

hope the socialstudies paper went well for those that went today. everyone that i know studied on switzerland and it didnt come out.

jacob father, this is your unwanted daughter here. dont be angry la please. hope using my pen gave you some luck or something. yar.

i want to eat hotfudge sundae from macs. growls.

hrrm.. just got home.. and its raining.. sheesh.
lets see, i went to jacob's house at around 2plus.. we managed to do a little studying. and some question spotting for his exam tomorrow.. i was being such a nag hag pestering him to study. haha. around 5ish wai came over and we were talking rubbish in his room. and clever jacob decides to play a game of pillow fight with me. on second thought, i think i initiated it. ha. stupid, he used so much force.. ouch.

then watched hollandvee at 7. duh* haha. then more pillow or rather bloster fight because i pushed him off his bed. haha. then i bit him.. and he pulled me by my legs to the flood. ouch. and then we did this butt comparison thingy. and apparently, he won cos he has a smaller ass. and now i have to kiss i-dont-know-who. and oh yar, jacob, i owe your sis a kiss. hahah. thats for laughing at his picture.

and they were sending randon smses from my phone saying. "just want to say that i love you." or something along that line.. stupid. bah. and i had to reply saying that it wasnt me blahblah.

owell. going over to bukitbatok now. anyone wanna swim tomorrow? haha.

im in this horrible mood now. pms. not sure. i fucking dont care. ugh. irritated.

just quarreled with that irritating brother of mine again. he came into my room, ( without knocking again. ) and demanded that he wanted to use the computer. so i had to close my msn windows, icq windows, internetexplorer windows and the kazza programme. in the end, my computer hung. and he was just behind me showing his fucking attitude on how i was spoiling things thats given to me blahblah. and he knows that i want to use the computer after he's done.. and he happily switches it off. ugh.

my mom is equally irritating. all she does is side my fucking eldest brother. motherfucker. its obviously his fault for pushing his weight around the house. so? am i supposed to bear with it just cos im the youngest? and i was told by my mom that if im not happy here, i could always shift out. and you know what? im going to do just that when i've gained total independance. shift out of this bloody shit hole.

i totally detest my eldest brother. ( no, not danny. i adore danny. ) he's a total fucker i swear. i was reading the bloody newpaper in my room and he just comes into my room without knocking mind you.. fucking rude. and demands for the newpaper. excuse me, im like in the midst of reading it. and i fucking showed him some attitude and he started scolding me.. telling me says that he knows what im doing outside and all. and ask me to watch out? like what the fuck? if you know what im doing outside, come up straight to me when im fagging and slap my face la. feel free. motherfucker. he thinks that just because he's the eldest in the family he has control over me. fuck off. i dont even speak to him when im back on weekends. and if he wants to hate me too, sure. i dont even give a fuck. just stay out of my room and dont ever touch my computer larh. and dont even ask me anything. dont even ask me to help him buy fag or dinner. fucking asshole. UGH.

chocolate ice cream with cornflakes is totally sinful. but yet im indulging in it now.. sheesh.

i wanted to go to church. realllly. but i slept at 4am last night and when the alarm clock went off at 730 this morning i couldnt help but to switch it off and go back to my dreamland. sheesh. so much for coming home on a saturday. maybe last night if i stayed on a boatquay and all, i will probably be able to wake up this morning like how i went to church last sunday without sleeping a wink on saturday night.

anyway last night, i kept smiling to myself while i was on the phone. as wai said, its a total miracle to see him and im glad i did. very glad. :)

i've got shit sudden craving for banmian..

what the fuck? i just typed in a longgg entry and blogger just had to screw up..

anyway.. recap. went out about 5ish today.. met denise, darryl and wai at heeren.. walked around.. took neoprints.. :) really nice. heh. had dinner in cine and met catherine and kelly after that.

went to boatquay with quite alot of people.. met banana, jacob, albert etc etc there outside chocolatebar. the service there sucks. big time.. owell. sat around for awhile and left about 12. oh, we were waiting for a cab and some bunch of 4 guys just had to come infront of us and try to steal it from us? fucking ball-less i tell you. was so pissed we stared at them and crossed the road. arse.

hrrms, im a happy girl today.. totally unexpected.. but it totally made my day and im very glad that i came out. :) was so shocked to see him.. heh. imu*

yayy. danny kor kor is coming back on the 30th september.. :) i've not seen him in like 4 months? miss him so so so much. imagine having a real blood brother and he doesnt even call you when he's off in newyork for 4 months? but.. still.. he's my nicest brother. compared to the stupid ass at home. yay. TWENTY FIVE more dayss! :)

school was alright.. grography lesson was so full of crap. laughed like some nuts.. had some chemistry spring test.. kinda easy. heh. after school, went to the staff room to get something from my form teacher with my friend. we ended up chatting and all.. and oh.. he's very good looking. the most good looking male teacher in my school. :) like realllly good looking. haha.

and school ended at 12.35.. i was supposed to meet catherine, edmund and wai at rivervalley ( boontongkee ) for lunch at 12.45 and i totally lost track of time in the staff room and also went to get notes from my science teacher.. in the end i reached rivervalley at about err, 1.30? felt so guilty.. sorry! after lunch, the 2 girls sent edmund back to kimseng and we went to lido.. catherine went to see the doctor.. that girl has a horrible case of flu.

after that, went to paragon.. she wanted to cut her hair at the hair shop, but my bro's friend leong wasnt free.. had some show to do. sheesh. then we walked all around paragon. gosh. so many shops. so many things to buy. :) then we walked alllll the way to heeren. took neoprints. pretty pretty. heh. went over to cine.. saw this fucking fucked up st marg's girl. indian.. ( im not being a racist here ) short. and guess what? her uniform's zip was like down all the way to her fucking sagging tits? she fucking look like a whore in a uniform. fucking disgusted by her. owell.. sluts. tsk.

was on the bus just now.. and i gave up my seat to a pregnant lady. :) haha. saw miss low cycling at holland. hrrm.. had a veryy filling dinner just now. and now im feeling fat. no.. strike that out, i am fat.. yar.. im all stuffed with fats.. blarghs.

hrrm.. was having a conversation with catherine just now. she claimed that i have the worst pms in the world ever. not all the time la. duh. and she claims that she and wai and totally vouch for it and come up with many examples.. sheesh. im already trying to be nice okay. anyway lunch with her at boontongkee tomorrow without pigtrotter.. oh man. cant wait.. :)

school was oh so boring.. went to ikea after school with wai. now there are so many things i wanna buy!! i wanna re do my whole room but its gonna be a little hard to convince my parents cos that would mean tearing down everything thats done in my room.. its all some built in shit. even my side tables and study table. darn. anyway.. i was being a nice little sis. bought my sister 2 photo frames.. came back and put photos in for her. aww. so sweeeet. lol.

Os are really fucking around the corner. shit shit... agh. time i start. havent i been saying this for the longest time?

anyway, bran please dont be angry with me la. i really would have gone lohr. i already told nana if your birthday got anything on then call me.. dont be angry pleasee. and i hope your hamster daphy is doing well. :) heh. steffi, lets all meet up soon alright? yay. take care yar? was fun conferencing just now although i seem to be the one talking the most. sheesh.

hollandvillage today is so sad. i almost teared. aww.

i woke up this morning feeling quite down. was infact quite down the whole day in school. sigh. so many memories. ahh, enough said.. anyway. met wai at clementi after school. walked around a little.. ate so much. i dont even want to hear about how fat i am now. damn.

school was alright.. i slept through the whole socialstudies period again.. whats new? need to stop this slackening already.. had english mock exam just now after school. did my paper and went to holland to meet denise, wai and queenie.. wasted 6 bucks on cab fare just to go there and see them fag and come back home? what the hell?

anyway there is this major mock chemistry exam tomorrow. and i've yet to study for it.. was actually in the midst of studying.. but then received an sms and i got kinda affected.. i just stared at the message for like 1 whole minute trying hard not to accept what i've just read.. anyway.. thoughts of all the things connected to him just flashed through my mind.. and i mean every single event.. like the chasing.. talking.. crapping.. playing. and all. kinda hard to accept that im probably never going to see him again.. -sigh- was feeling a little moody so i took the penknife on the table and just cut a long line along my wrist.. finally i see something red. cos the past few times i tried, it didnt work. blarghs.

im actually quite upset and affected.. didnt expect that i will actually feel this way. haiyar. i miss you alot alott. too much to comprehand. enough said.. sigh. 225 days.... ah. enough.. sigh.

just realised something.. i used to go to town everyday after school. either that, or holland village.. but for the whole of last week.. ( read, monday till sunday ) i didnt even step into town. woohoo. i think its record breaking.. considering that im not grounded somemore. usually i will find my way to town. i dont know what happened last week man.. amazing! one whole week of not going to town.. gosh. this is such a bimbo-tic entry. sheeesh.

im playing all my christian cds now. hrrm. just suddenly had an urge to hear it.. i suddenly feel like listening to that is why. but if im not wrong ms low wrote it.. hrrm. back to bukit batok tomorrow. got mock exams for the whole of this week! ughhh! please pray that i actually get through it all. i dont know why, but listening to christian cds sung by kids gives me this feeling of joy. ha. dumb.. i dont know what im talking about.. not like the songs sung by adults arent.. but.. ah. im talking rubbish yet again..

just hung up the phone with jen.. loads of catching up and all. hrrm. was just talking about what courses we would like to major in next year.. its actually kinda scary.. anyway was talking to ailing online. about the mission trip. :) maybe its laos.. the children ministry.. not sure yet. hope we all can go. yay.

my mom's not at home today. bah.